Thursday, July 29, 2021

THIS IS THE HARD PART

 This is the hard part.  

The watching as she falls in her own bowel movements.  The watching as she staggers around, trying to find her way.  The watching her fall over and over again and when her little legs give out on her.  Watching and waiting.  

Last night I made my bed on the floor, hoping she'd snuggle up to my feet like she does in bed.  But she's a creature of habit, and once I closed the door to the bedroom, where she typically climbs the ramp to join us in bed,  her routine had been interrupted, and she refused to lay at my feet.  I couldn't leave the door opened for her to climb the ramp to bed, she barely makes it, then she falls going down.

She slept sweetly though, through the night.  Up and down a number of times, and outside to potty, and then fall, not able to get back up.  I did not sleep, hardly at all.  

This is the hard part.  Waiting, while she spends the day at the vet's office.  Waiting for him to examine her in between his scheduled surgeries, to evaluate, how shall we move forward from here?

Is her time with us to end now?  Will we continue to fight to keep her comfortable?  I pray for discernment, as I wait for the vet's call.  I will likely go with his professional opinion - what now?    

This is not a very good post, but I just wanted to write something.

This is the hard part.

This morning, on our way to the vet


10 comments:

  1. Sending my love to you all and especially to sweet Gracie❤️ I know it is hard to watch her struggling🙏🏼 Praying for all of you.

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  2. Gracie I love you. Your antics have filled my heart with delight throughout the years. Bobbie I know how tough it is You are in my prayers. We just went through this with our beloved Mira a month ago. She was part of our lives for 18 years. It is so hard to let go & say goodbye. Read Miras story here https://taryterre.blogspot.com/2021/06/mira-rest-of-story.html
    I'll be thinking of you and Gracie.sending prayers and all my love.

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  3. My heart hurts for you both and am praying for you both.

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  4. Oh Bobbi, my heart just breaks for both you and Gracie. Praying for discernment and peace.

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  5. I'm so very sorry you have to make these decisions. It's so very hard. Praying God will give you wisdom and peace .

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  6. Gracie, Samson and I have loved you for such a long time now. We are so proud of you how you keep going deep into your old age. Samson sends his xoxoxoxoxoxo and says he will always love you. So will I.

    Dear Bobbi, this is so difficult, I'm all teared up, I remember all your years with Gracie, sweet Gracie and what joy she has brought to your life. She is very old now, you have kept her safe for so long, you have loved her, Gracie knows how much she is loved. I believe that in the end, love is all that really matters. I wish you peace, dear Bobbi. This is so very difficult. Sending love to you and Gracie.

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  7. I'm so very sorry to hear that you are awaiting news for your Gracie. I hope and pray that the vet makes the right decision for all of you.

    Sending my best to you all.

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  8. Sending many prayers. Indeed, the toughest part of love.....

    Hugs,
    Kim

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  9. Sending my love. Prayers and hugs. Mildred

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