Laughing at Myself

I'm pretty sure I have husband's cold. Though he thought it was a side effect of the drug he was taking for cholesterol - and I thought so too - but now that I have 'it' I'm thinking maybe it's just a bug of some kind. Ugh.

What got me back into blogging? You ask.

Okay, you didn't ask. But I'm going to tell you anyway :-)  

Years ago I decided to have my blogs printed into volumes and books. 

Yes, I did. 

It was at a time when I was still working and had a little extra money to throw around. I barely looked at the books after they were made, but my daughter pulls them out and studies them often when she is here. 

Stay with me.

So after Gracie died I seldom blogged. She was my inspiration and the personality behind the entire blog. I felt like I had lost my identity and purpose. My heart. 

A few days ago, still looking for that peaceful place I once had when blogging, I pulled out one of the volumes and started reading. Several things clicked.

1. I enjoy my own writing. I found myself laughing at myself and boy, did I need that!

2. Gracie returned. Sassy and cute and larger than life.

3. Memories. They were all there. 

4. You. I missed you and your pets and your kindness and how you could make me laugh by sharing simple shenanigans of your pets. I missed knowing about your life. Watching you navigate life and often learning ways to better navigate my own life. 

5. And finally, there were those who had befriended me on blogger whom I grew to care for them deeply... who are gone. But their comments, those heartfelt, warming, and sometimes funny comments live on between the pages of each one of those book volumes GRACIE OWNS ME and GROWING OLD WITH GRACIE. 

Be still my heart.

I have found blogging to be getting to know a person from the inside out, and that's the best way! All other avenues of social media have been more the opposite. Does that make sense to you?  

Well. It does to me.

And that is why I am back.  Thank you for welcoming me back. 

My old computer crashed last week and I had to get a new one. So here's to hoping this one allows me to continue blogging and get back on track.