So there we were. At home. It is not safe to be out in public, said the exports. What to do, what to do. I tried to generate some online love from the grands.
The older kids were absorbed in other things, I suppose. I got nearly a grunt from them, but Summer on the other hand... She was always there to remind me - she was still with me in heart, tho separated by space.
Gracie decided things weren't bad enough, so she took sick. Very sick. I wondered, is this her time? I was extremely anxious and sad. I was in robot-mode as I tried hard to bury any feelings I had and we visited multiple vet hospitals via curbside service, masks in place, social distancing practiced, and lots of cash spent to fix my girl, while feeling helpless and hopeless.
Life had changed dramatically overnight. It would hurt for a long time and freedom as we knew it may never be again. Fortunately and thankfully, Gracie, after many weeks of meds that seemed to make her even worse, showed signs of improvement.
Getting her outdoors proved to be the best medicine she could ever have.
God kept reminding me of His presence in the beauty that surrounded me.
"I am still here. I have never left," He whispered.
I searched for signs of beauty amidst the chaos, uncertainty, bitter cold and spring snow-squalls.
Time.
That thing we often long for.
Thank You God for the wonderful blessings of family near and far who have kept and are keeping in touch.
And for Your reminder, God.
"I am still here."
My curbside business leaves me wondering, are we being ushered into a new normal?
I agree! Time is so precious, and we never have enough. Now we do! I am so glad Gracie is all better!! How is Gary doing? I wish we could meet up again. Good to see you have been able to continue working, though I guess you have not been able to do testing? The redbud are gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteI've known you for such a long time now. And I read your book when Gracie arrived as a little puppy. I have worried about her as she must be getting pretty old by now. Samson will be 11 in July and I know Gracie was older than he. I'm so glad she recovered. Then Summer -- I remember how I fell in love with her very unusual adorable face when she was a very young little girl. One or two or so. Looking back is fun, can be sad, but we must move forward and hopefully get beyond this horrible virus.
ReplyDeletesounds like you are making the most of this time. the sights and sounds around us are beautiful for sure. i'm so sorry to hear Gracie has been sick. i lost one of my kitties. she was 17 years old. and it's been quite a blow during this difficult time. GRACIE love you sweetie. hang in there. glad you're feeling a little better.
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