Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Legacy

It was 2 years ago.  The day before Thanksgiving.  My appointment with the dermatologist after 2 long weeks of waiting and worrying was here.

The biopsy results were in.  I sat in the waiting room paging through a magazine, not thinking about what was inside, instead thinking about my life.  My death.  My family.

It was 5:30 PM and light had faded into darkness and I could see and feel the cold through the office windows.  It was a scary time in my life.  Thanksgiving Day was tomorrow, but I couldn't even think about it.  I was consumed.  What was in store for me if the biopsies had tested positive for the deadly melanoma?  I trembled inside of myself as the nurse called me back.

I sat in one room alone for a few minutes before she came back and said, "The doctor wants to talk to you in the other room."

I knew then, this could not be good.

I followed her to the next room, ready to accept my fate and praying for strength.

The doctor asked me to sit down.  He sat on a stool just feet away and looked me in the eye.

"Is your husband here with you today?"  he asked.

"Yes," I said.

I wrung my hands...  waiting.

"Here's what I want you to do," he said.  "I want you two to stop on your way home from here and get a bottle of champagne, because today is a day of celebraion for you.  I was 99% sure I would be giving you a death sentence on this day and I even thought about changing your appointment till after Thanksgiving so I didn't have to give you the bad news before the holiday."

He was smiling.

"Your biopsy came back benign," he said.  "But I was sure that had to be wrong, so I sent it 2 other labs and they too, came back benign."

Then he called Gary in and talked to us both.  Champagne was in order.   A surgery would come later, but for now it was a time to celebrate.

We walked out into the dark, cold night but it no longer felt dark and cold.  The sun was shining in my heart and I was relieved and truly THANKFUL!

Two years later,  and 2 additional Grand-angels later (one is still in the oven, due soon)....  I would like to take this time to thank GOD for my life!

Tomorrow our family will come together.  We will enjoy good food and lots of love and laughter.

We never know when our time to leave this earth will come.  It can be an ongoing sickness or it can happen in the blink of an eye. 

LOVE those who are in your life TODAYFORGIVE those who do not deserve forgiveness and it will HEAL your OWN heart!  Once in a while allow yourself a good BELLY LAUGH and don't take this LIFE too seriously.  One day it will end.  And all that will be left behind is your LEGACY

Have a beautiful and blessed Thanksgiving, my dear friends!





17 comments:

Maple Lane said...

Hi Bobbi and Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family. Your granddaughters brought a big smile to my heart today on the video. John and I are especially thankful this year after his Aug. tumor surgery.
This is an exciting time in your life and I pray that God will continue to bless you and Gary!

S. J. Qualls said...

Good post Bobbi! So happy that you are here with us to write it!

Have a most Happy Thanksgiving!

Wanda's Wings said...

Isn't God good?

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

Bobbi, I found myself holding my breath while reading your post! I am touched and can feel your gratitude and humbled heart at your good news and the love you have for your family.

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(¸.•´ (¸.•` ¤ HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

3 doxies said...

Oh geez lady, you made my heart do all them palpitation thingies readin' dis! Dat was skeerey as a squirrel withs rabies. But, I has nevers been more thankfuls dat you is okays and thankfuls dat you has comed into my life.

I hope you has a wonderful Thanksgivin' withs your family and them beautiful grand kids.

Puddles
PS: My mum is one of them hoomans dat will nevers hold a grudge too.

Gloria Hood said...

Oh my goodness. couldn't breath there for a few. You are indeed blessed, in many ways! Happy Thanksgiving to you and your very beautiful family!
Gloria and Miss Mindy

Inger said...

I was sitting here crying happy tears, but also tears because I have come to care so much for you. Then I read Puddles comment and now I'm smiling. Thank you for this beautiful post and have a wonderful Tanksgiving.

NanaNor's said...

Dear Bobbi, What a blessed Thanksgiving that was two years ago but for all of us, we need to daily be thankful for life-it flees much to quickly. I am so thankful for the good news you received and it is a reminder that we all need to be diligent in caring for ourselves.
From my nest to yours, Happy Thanksgiving.
Hugs, Noreen & Hunter

Janie Junebug said...

That's so sweet and beautiful, especially forgiving those who don't deserve it. I'm glad you're here.

Love,
Janie

Murray's Mouth said...

What a great post! MUCH to be thankful for!

Amber DaWeenie said...

What a scary time that must have been. I'm so glad everything turned out so well with nothing to worry about.

Those grandkids of yours are adorable.

Have a Happy and Blessed Thanksgiving!

Tweedles -- that's me said...

Thank you for sharing this beautiful post with us!
Happy Thanksgiving to all of you.
love
tweedles

That corgi :) said...

Very good reminder to treasure each and every day we have and to be grateful and appreciative and to love our family and not allow grudges and bitterness, etc., spoil our love for each other. So thankful you got great news 2 years ago! Otherwise who knows if you would now be a published author!

Happy Thanksgiving!

betty

Theresa said...

Sweet good morning to you dear Bobbi! We have SO much to be thankful for, don't we! I hope you and your family will have a wonderful Thanksgiving... thanks for the smiles this morning:) HUGS!

sophie...^5 said...

Oh Bobbi......wow......I just can't imagine what you went through sitting there waiting and waiting...that's the hardest part of health issues....we've had our share just like all humans will. Hoppy, I mean Happy Thanksgiving to all...Sophie made me say Hoppy...she's in charge you know!
Smiles!
Ron

Jim said...

What a hopeful post Bobbi! That must have been an awful wait for you two years ago. But, I am sure you are remembering that elated feeling as you were leaving the doctor's office that evening.....true happiness and relief in being ALIVE!!
happy Thanksgiving to you , Gary and your family ...oh yes, and Gracie!

Liz said...

So glad everything turned out okay! Such a cute video!